One day I'll be happy.
Right now I'm at a difficult stage in my life. I'm in my third year of high school and all I really do is study and stress about exams and assignments. I don't know who I am and I hate it. I want to exercise to stay fit, but I'm a certified couch potato. I have friends I don't like but can't get rid of because they're just there now and trying to pull away would be rude. I get really angry at everyone all the time and most nights, I cry myself to sleep. I'm so stressed out its crazy. I don't have time to worry about the things that I should be able to worry about. I don't have time to do all the things I should be able to do. I'm in all extension classes, I feel way to dumb for all of them, and I absolutely suck at maths. There's a boy that I like that I don't think even knows I exist. I think that the only thing I'm actually good at is tripping on invisible things and falling down the stairs. I've had about five mental breakdowns in the last week. My parents are driving me crazy. I just feel so frustrated all the time, and all I really want to do is rip my own hair out of my head.
I need to sort my shit out.
I guess that feeling is what being a teenager is all about. And I guess that's what we all forget as we get older, because all of my teachers seem not to care just how hard they are on us even though it's pretty clear that if they push just a tiny bit harder, we might all shatter into a million pieces and never be able to put ourselves back together.
Friday, 26 February 2016
Wednesday, 3 February 2016
Lace Collingwood
I just posted by introduction and realized that it said at the bottom, 'posted by Lace Collingwood.' I am not Lace Collingwood, and I have never met a Lace Collingwood in my life. Because of my seriously strong want to remain anonymous, I have probably about a million different accounts on various websites, and they all have different names. I literally just go into a random name selector website and make up a fake name. Sometimes, when I'm not feeling particularly lazy, I'll actually go through a list of first and last names until I find something that sounds nice together.
Lace Collingwood is one of my favorite fake names, and that's saying a lot since I have many absolutely fantastic fake names, if I do say so myself. I was watching The Bachelor (obsessed with this as well, although I don't really believe it's the best way to find love) and there was a girl on there named Lace. I thought that Lace was a pretty name and I felt sorry for her because she got sort of flustered whenever she talked to the bachelor and ended up angry with herself because of it. Then later on I was scrolling through a list of last names and say Collingwood and thought that that was a good last name. And here we are.
Note that although I might like watching The Bachelor, I myself would never want to go on there because I don't think that finding love on television is the right way to go about it, especially when the guy you're dating is also dating twenty other girls.
Lace Collingwood is one of my favorite fake names, and that's saying a lot since I have many absolutely fantastic fake names, if I do say so myself. I was watching The Bachelor (obsessed with this as well, although I don't really believe it's the best way to find love) and there was a girl on there named Lace. I thought that Lace was a pretty name and I felt sorry for her because she got sort of flustered whenever she talked to the bachelor and ended up angry with herself because of it. Then later on I was scrolling through a list of last names and say Collingwood and thought that that was a good last name. And here we are.
Note that although I might like watching The Bachelor, I myself would never want to go on there because I don't think that finding love on television is the right way to go about it, especially when the guy you're dating is also dating twenty other girls.
Tuesday, 2 February 2016
The Start of Something New
I know what the title says, but no, this is not a High School Musical fan blog or a blog where I'll post the lyrics to songs that I like. Not that I like High School Musical songs... Okay fine, I do, but seriously, who doesn't? This blog is all about me. Yes, ME. Although, you'll never know who 'me' is because I plan to keep this blog completely anonymous so that if my friends ever see it, they won't know who I am.
The reason I'm writing this blog about me is because I was watching MTV's Awkward (that I happen to be OBSESSED with, by the way) and the main character Jenna writes a sort of diary on a blog. She doesn't keep hers anonymous but I'm going to because I don't fancy people finding out about my private thoughts and actually know who I am. I think that I would literally die of embarrassment, because my thoughts are VERY weird. In fact, I'm just a weird person in general.
So to any and all people who have somehow unfortunately stumbled upon this blog of my thoughts, firstly, I am very sorry, and secondly, I hope you find at least some amusement in reading about my deepest, darkest, dirtiest secrets. Just kidding, my life is seriously so boring I don't even have any secrets.
The reason I'm writing this blog about me is because I was watching MTV's Awkward (that I happen to be OBSESSED with, by the way) and the main character Jenna writes a sort of diary on a blog. She doesn't keep hers anonymous but I'm going to because I don't fancy people finding out about my private thoughts and actually know who I am. I think that I would literally die of embarrassment, because my thoughts are VERY weird. In fact, I'm just a weird person in general.
So to any and all people who have somehow unfortunately stumbled upon this blog of my thoughts, firstly, I am very sorry, and secondly, I hope you find at least some amusement in reading about my deepest, darkest, dirtiest secrets. Just kidding, my life is seriously so boring I don't even have any secrets.
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